Right after I had my son in February, I had to wait a good month in a half for my body to recover from having him. In April when we moved houses, I was finally able to start getting back into it again. Ruben had been telling me that he wanted to start working out again as well, so that helped me out because we could both go. I tried running my first day out and of course when you’re first running, you start feeling good. You start thinking to yourself, “Man I could go faster and longer. “, and when you’ve gotten through a little less than half of your run you remember that it isn’t like it used to be. Your body is no longer used to this, and you no longer have the same endurance any longer! Of course, that’s when it becomes harder to want to get back into things! I remember telling myself that I wanted to run 3 miles that day! Woah baby, was that a joke! I barely could get through a mile without dying out. Now, I’m sure you all know how difficult it is starting over. Now I tried multiple times after that first time to start getting back out there, but I started little by little seeing how different my body felt after having a baby.
My body reacts a different way, than before but that could be a good thing or a bad thing I won’t know yet till I fully try. That’s why this next time, I’ve finally realized that this is my second chance. I need to work harder than I ever have before. I didn’t run in college. I didn’t run much afterwards. And there is so much I still wanted to do with running that I never got to! I know I can do good this time! So, having the baby may have changed my body but like I said it could be good or bad we won’t know till I try! Now it has been hard these past two weeks trying to run consistently and trying to get through those runs without dying, but I’ve had that motivation of a second chance keeping me going every day! Now, you know that running alone is hard to some people, because it doesn’t feel the same, it makes you feel better to have someone next to you going along the ride with you, rather than trying to push yourself to strive alone. So, the motivation of that second chance is really hitting home in my heart! I know I will do better! And I will make myself proud. I am really looking at this on a realistic level, I know that I might not start out the way I want things to, but that doesn’t mean I can’t have over the moon goals for myself! If I don’t think highly of my own self, then I won’t be able to succeed in the long run. So yes, there is a million negative thoughts going through my head when trying to finish my runs, but there are always a million negative thoughts to that one good thought! I will take advantage of my second chance, and so should all of you! Some good will come of this, I just know it!